May 2013 – August 2018
“Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes.”
– Carl Jung
This is the first part of my magnum opus, initiated in May 2013 and concluded in August 2018. A time during which I dedicated on average 10 hours every day to attentive studies. What you see is merely the distilled conclusions and condensed parallel artworks, every image holds massive amounts of unpublished information, many hundred hours of study and practice as well as countless hours of observation and experience gathering. Most images should be viewed as a depiction of the inside of my mind. How I see the reflection of the outer world within my mind. Hence, “the eye in the sky” is the absolute depth of my being, the deepest point of my subconscious. It is the personification of the unknown inside my mind. As it has been given so so many names throughout time.
The reason why the dates are non-linear (in the HTML version with dates) is simply because my perception of time differs a lot to that of the conventional perception. The dates which I have associated with the pieces are estimates on the location in the space-time where the understanding of the essential concept they try to encapsulate arose. The visual and symbolic story of the images however is of another time-line. Because when you read the patterns of echoes through time, things which was and things which is, is very much intertwined with that which will be. And the more you see their interaction, the lesser the borders between them. The easiest way to recognize such pattern is to document ones own progression and make conscious and aware research of ones own material. At a certain level of perception one sees that things one thought one just had realized was really a more advanced version of an understanding that occurred on previous laps of the cycle. Because time is a pattern itself. A pattern of movement through space. Every lap is the same but different.
In my work I went through several cultures and histories, through scientific fields and linguistics, I explored the esoteric and mastered alchemy, I understood philosophy and studied gnosticism, I acquainted myself with and observed ascended masters and pioneers in their particular fields. I ascended to the 99:th percentile of intelligence and by doing so climbed the internal hierarchy. I explored most paranormal concepts as well as trained my extrasensory perception and recollection. I mastered the art of lucid dreaming, dream building, dreamwalking and astral projection beyond the level at which I were proficient before I initiated this project. I also developed aspects of my synaesthesia further than I could have imagined possible when I first discovered what it was that constantly differentiated in my perception in expressed experience compared to that of my peers.
The amount of work and dedication this project has required could not possibly be summarized in short, as it went beyond mere acquiring of intellect. It also depended on my ability to assimilate and comprehend what was being gathered in complete conscious awareness. It is an absolute dedication to complete attention. Something which is not to be taken lightly by anyone whom might consider doing the same.
As I have done everything by means of personal effort without reliance on any conventional school, there is really no reason nor excuse for anyone not to do the same. I did recieve extensive amounts of private schooling, but that only because I already was passionate and willing to learn. From my personal experience private teachers gladly teach and educate the passionate student willing to learn.
But initially I was no more than average, maybe even worse, when I initiated this project. Some might find that hard to believe, but it is very much true. “Never discourage yourself with comparison, that only leads to failure.”
was one of my encouraing mottos which I relied on a lot in the beginning. As my knowledge at that time was on the level of elementary and high school.
Every tool and resource is there and available to the majority of people. One of the best strategies is to first master English, because that opens every door to learning new things, as most information are in English. Most people would be blown away completely if they realized what could be achieved with only the public library and the Internet if they only choose to use their time as efficient as they possibly could. No fulfilling result comes easy.
The key is to not get stuck in prejudice.
As it gets in the way of learning.
Seek and thou shall find.
It should also be mentioned that I am well aware of certain linguistic errors. I intentionally left them in, as to symbolize progress. My English was very poor in the beginning, and is by no means perfect. Of course there will be specialized scholars that are far more well versed than I am. But that is simply because I have studied so many fields in tandem with my specialization.
Because at a certain point you overcome duality, the intellectual notion of ‘right and wrong’, as you begin to see actual meaning in what most would call ‘wrong’. You start to learn from it, and instead of becoming an annoyance, you draw meaning from it. Therefore I have intentionally left in some errors, or things some would call ‘wrong’.
It should also be mentioned that I was very hesitant to sharing this. Because it is really very personal and private. It is my own life and my own progress of learning. Some people have said that they enjoy it, or can draw meaning from it, which is why I have shared it.
But it is really not intended for those who are unable to extend patience, but instead just condemn what they see instantly when they fall victim to prejudice and inattention. Learning is hard and painful, just like it is hard and painful lifting weights at the gym. Neurogenesis can be paralleled with growing pains. But the reason why you do it is because when you have gone about it for a while, stops and look back, you will have a high like few other, when you can genuinely have that thought,
in true authenticity without lying to yourself:
Holy feck! I am actually quite good!
Of everything I have tried in my life, that is the closest to fulfillment I have ever come.
Non est ad astra mollis e terris via!