manligaste mössa lyckades jag få tag på också.
Folk får ju mens i hjärnan när en har basker på sig.
Men det förklarar för mig varför de klär sig som utvecklingsstörda.
Så fick leta rätt på något mer civilt.
Även om min basker var lila och så civil som den kan bli.
Om ni inte har något hemligt förband någonstans med lila basker här i Sverige.

Banksy funkar alltid.
Symboliskt är det spot on.
Min hjärna är min flickvän.
Och hon älskar att “swing on the spiral”. (Tool – Lateralus)
Tänk dig typ.. The Prodigy’s Smack my Bitch up (musikvideon).
Fast omvänt.
She mah gal and a fecking God of imagination.
Det är nice att ha en hel hjärna, med båda halvorna.
Utan att behöva en annan köttsäck att släpa runt på i förhållande.

Fri man.

Made this

long before it became truly relevant. To myself.
My art tends to be ahead of its time.
My definition of success it not the same as those who thinks they know what reality is.
Something that cannot be known.
The most detached you can ever become from reality,
is if you think you know what reality is.
Something that cannot ever be known.
That is just fact.
And oh does the group hate that fact.
Which is why they hold on to their small platform of defined reality.
Their detachment from the absolute moment of now.
The gift of the present.
The gift of animated life.

With ‘the world’ I mean ‘human society’ – I was not as well versed back then.


Is a truly interesting area of science.
As it is essentially where language and mathematics converge.
It might sound simple and silly at first.
But if you understand the pattern of phonetics sparked in the overlapping patterns of designed language – the mathematical construct in neurogenetics.
Like calculating half-life in biology, but the mathematical decline in neurogenetic arrangements.

When I read text, I, mostly thanks to my synaesthesia, read patterns overlapping the entire construct.
This is why I love shaping text. As to illustrate that my thinking is the entire construct of text rather than just weird lines of arranged symbolism in the shape of words.

You read these words, and you have an intellectual conceptualisation of it.
You understand this sentence, right?
But what you understand is not the words, but the information that is arranged on the secondary layer. If you are wise, and knowing, you can perceive the tertiary layer of wisdom. Often taking shape in wordplays and puns, as it requires transcending the immediate information carried on the symbols.

If you transcend that level, you will come to find linguistic patterns over time, how symbolism morphs over time. Energetic rearrangement due to the biological evolution and indirect reshaping of neurogenetics due to epigenetics of humans and its contribution to the morphing of phonetics.
Language is a mathematical construct if math is properly understood.
It is not that it is math, it is just that its arrangement can be filtered through that perception and arranged intellectual and symbolic paradigm.
This is the real reason I was very interested in Hebrew and ancient Greek – because it is very common in those languages.

Ancients were far more well versed in mathematics than we are.
In intuitive understanding, not intellectual symbolism.
Language at that level were simple enough to consciously arrange.
Think of a kid that has ten or fifty LEGO-bricks. Easy to map out all arrangements, and consciously add new arrangements. The greater the construct, the exponential increase of possible arrangements in the symbolic construct. Growing slowly into an intellectual entity in the shape of intellectual artificial intelligence.
In modern times there are so many solutions in any given language that no living human knows them all – wrap your head around that.

Your vocabulary is your conceptual wealth. Your ability to perform linguistic mathematics.
Because you still conceptualise everything in a construct.
Also, every phonetic occur and reoccur in a pattern, so in this text for example – the letter A (major or minor) appears in a given variable frequency. Thus completely subject to physics, and therefore completely subjected to mathematics.

If this properly conceptualised, entire blocks of information can be calculated.
This is very important in the calculation of quantum probability, because it is arranged energetics. You can, if you are conscious of what language is in terms of neurogenetics and mathematics quite accurately predict the outcome of a person. Because they operate after a phonetic pattern. A melody.
Like music.

The more I observe the ongoing progression in the arrangement of human language, taking shape as information in the public, the more I can deduce the probable outcome of the future.

As a scientific person, I do not believe in prophecy. I believe in probability.
Because it is based in mathematics, which is based in the observation of everything.
The reoccurrence of patterns, or as to say, my ability to recognise patterns.

Language is truly telling.
Not only on the obvious symbolic level.
But also on the second, third, fourth, fifth, sixth and seventh layer of synchronicity which I can perceive.

It does not look good.
A small mathematical seed is all it takes to spawn a great deal of information.
The kicker:
It applies on everyone.
Aware of it or not.


the unknown is by far one of the hardest things you can do in life – because it has never been done before. Nor can it be defined. Because the moment it is, it is known.

Realising this, one can assume that knowledge grows. You grow knowledge. And the more of it you have grown, the greater the foundation which constitutes your understanding. It takes knowledge to understand, but understanding to truly know.

This is why one should collect ideas. Because they are mental fertilisers.
All creation is merging of two or more different components. Because if there were no merging, everything would be in equilibrium. All destruction is the separation of two or more components.
This regardless of portion in the energy spectrum.

The mind thinking is a very volatile place if you are a true thinker. Constantly ideas merge and separate from each other. Like atoms and molecules. The more exotic the combination of ideas, the easier it is to reach the unknown.

Since the unknown is surrounding the known, it is not hard to reach per se. The hard part is to separate yourself from the known. As to say, to some extent destroy the automatic and autonomous nature of the ego – that is looping you back from the edge of the unknown through ideas such as denial, disbelief and doubt.
Once you reach the edge of the known, it like looking out from a window on an airplane. You have a vague idea what is there, but you cannot really fathom it.
That is when you initiate the growth of ideas.

It is as easy as it is hard. Because it has not been done before.
It is easy to do, just create something new.
The hard part is to integrate it.
And the even harder part is when it starts to question and challenge the integrity of what you knew. Because now your integrity and therefore entire definition of reality is in question.
This is usually where people loop back into the known.
They simply become scared of their mental platform being challenged.

Takes quite a lot of mental integrity to traverse the unknown.
Metaphorically, it is like walking in a deep forest, having no idea what is in it.
And your sight extends only a few meters ahead of you.

Integrity in that sense, is a ‘frienemy’ – because it can protect you if you are properly aware. But it can also inhibit you if you are unaware. As to say, one can be contained within one’s own ideas of reality. And it has composed ideas that in an automatic fashion loops the thinker back to ‘safety’.

Everyone wants to be safe. Because they are scared absolutely shitless of the unknown.
Downright terrified. Because deep within, they know they do not know. So their integrity is simply denial. Assuming to know and creating a mental barrier to the edge of the known. A kind of mental and intellectual insulation.
“It is not real”

Real is just an idea.
Nothing more. Nothing less.
Whatever you associate and ascribe to that idea will manifest as your reality.
Since most people are given an intellectual template which they never question, they rarely stray from the known. Denial, disbelief and doubts blocks them.

What do you know?
Truly. Because it is a good question. One of the better actually.
Because when you start to question yourself that question, you realise just how little you do know. If you stop asking that question, you loop back into the known.

So in conclusion, the fastest way to reach the unknown, is to question what you know.
You see now you are mentally engaged in the process of growing ideas. You have to. You have no choice.
A question is the receptive mental component, the attractive, the sensual and before your very ideas dancing concept that spark an answer. A formulated idea.
Combined they create something new. Hopefully.
The better your question, the greater the potential for a good idea in the shape of answer. And the better you are at questioning your answers, the more rapid the mental expansion.

So at first, you have to mentally grow towards the unknown by questioning all you know. Once you know what you know, how little that is, and its level of integrity – now comes the process of assimilation. Integrating ideas into what you think you know. This is the process of growing integrity. And you absolutely need it.
The integrity of your arranged knowledge, the sum of your ideas, is your mental vessel with which you traverse the unknown.
If it is not sufficiently integrated and of a strong integrity, you will lose yourself in the unknown.

Does not mean it is catastrophic, but it could be.
Your mind once it traverses outside the collectively known, operates in the fashion of a space station, or submarine. It is now its own enclosed mental intellectual system. Navigating the depths of the unknown.
And assuming infinity, that ought to be mind-boggling to say the least.

But it is also your greatest source of intellectual harvest.
If you are good at combining ideas and concepts in an integrated manner, now your intellectual entity grows, and your ability to traverse the unknown increases.

From what I have seen in the unknown, it is not even a question to me why the vast majority of humans are absolutely terrified of it. To the very point that they even deny that.
They take “reality” for granted.
But essentially, the definition of reality, the arrangement of ‘known’ is little more than an energetic arrangement.

The more novel and sophisticated that arrangement, the more attractive it becomes.
You are terrified, but your curiosity grabs you.
This because growth is life. As long as you are truly alive, you will be curious.
Otherwise you are dead. If not in your biological arrangement, so in your mental.

You must have and accept the unknown if you want to be alive. Truly alive.
Because it is only on that mental edge, where you can glimpse into whatever the fuck life actually is. And is not. If it even is. Why do I even write this?

I take comfort in being terrified before the unknown. I have been it for so long that my statement that the unknown is my best friend is no light expression.
I am constantly attempting to integrate newly grown ideas into my intellectual arrangement.

You see, I have a tremendously huge ego – but not in the conventional meaning of that saying. Because my ego is not autonomous by means of intellect. It has not been programmed to automatically loop back into the known through denial, disbelief and doubt.
Like the ones with small egos.
Usually, the people you say have a “huge ego” actually has a very small ego. Because they neither question themselves nor what they know – they take the reality for granted the way they have defined it. A very narrowminded and smallminded way to operate whatever the fuck existence actually is. No I am not excusing my cursing, because you need to realise the importance of this.
If you take offense from a linguistically arranged symbol with no actual meaning in the greater aspect of things – that is an absolute proof you have a very small mind.
You do not even question why you take offense from it. You do not question the context.
In fact, you probably do not question anything at all. More than what you should eat today.

Why can you eat?
What is that?
Beyond biological integration in the physical spectrum of energy.
As I said, why and how am I even writing this?
Not in the light sense of the words, but as in.. you know, and you do not know?
What is all of this.
Who are you.
Why are you reading this?
Right now?
Why does this happen?

That is just the awareness triggers that everyone needs to have.
The ongoing questioning of the perceived reality.
Once you crystallise a perfect definition of it, you are mentally stagnating.
Because now you are not attempting to integrate new ideas.
Now you are comparing your ideas to other ideas.
And since your definition of “reality” is perfect, it is dead.
It will not grow. It will not become anything more.
Because you think you know.

And you will never explore the unknown as long as you think you know.
Because you must literally think what you do not know to traverse the unknown.

It is

that mind-numbing confusion that comes with being awake.
When all the zombies are.
Thoughts that are not your own.
Desires that are not your own.
The cancer screaming “I am right, I am right!”
Even though they refuse to explain it properly.
The fatties screaming “It is mine, it is mine!”
Even though they already have more than they can shove their fat faces.
The losers screaming “I am so depressed, so depressed!”
Even though they rarely have any real reason to be.
I just observe them.

There is this strategy; kill by kindness.
Feed your enemy to death.
These ones does it themselves.
All you have to do is watch.
If you tell them that, they eat more.

It almost got me.
That fucked up insanity.
Damn it was close.
Almost killed my kid.
Never again.

I hold mine close.
And watch all the fat fucks who cannot.
Slowly give in. Slowly give up.
No raging against the dying of the light in them.
They put it out themselves instead.

Then they complain over cancer.
Over whatever they get.
I do not give a fuck.
They are just noise.
And I like silence.

They be gone soon.
Because they have no real interest in the future.
They only want more.

But never more life.

If you are not one of those, regardless of appearance,
then you earn my respect.
It might not be much to the world at whole..
but you can take pride knowing you earned it for real.
As I try to keep it authentic. (“Real” to ‘gangstas’)


till 14 kilo i viktvästen från 10. En ökning med ~8% i relation till min kroppsvikt; 50,2 kg.
Men det är gött.
Går lättare att andas.

Ett par omgångar till, så kör jag upp till 21kg i viktvästen, som förra året.
Endast fyra kilo under halva kroppsvikten.
Som att vara överviktig, utan att vara överviktig.
I ett perspektiv.
Eller som i att kontrollerat låta kroppen arbeta på 150% kapacitet.
I ett annat.

Så att jag har exceptionell kapacitet när jag endast bär mig själv.
Det värsta som händer är att jag får inre blödningar och lite feber.
Hellre det än att jag blir så fet/ineffektiv att jag inte kan gå längre.
Det finns inga ursäkter.

Jag gör redan mer än jag ska, borde och egentligen kan.
Gnäller du för mig så förtjänar du inte att leva. Punkt slut.


done with the rearrangement of my template, my new becoming.
The end of the metamorphic process and becoming.
I have a completely different template in mind.
A new structure to organise for my mind.
Considering this is my eight or ninth, depending how you count –
eight artificial – I have become exceedingly efficient at arranging myself – at least internally, where the endeavour has been central.

Biological rearrangement is rapid. Morphing of the human body is faster than one might think – if one can think proper.
But mental is where the interesting part is at.

I have become so sophisticated in my neurogenetics that I need to arrange an internal governing organ, arranging the intellect for futureproof decisions. Considering I intend to preserve my entity for a while.

This to enable even more informational output and accelerated development.
The best thing with becoming more sophisticated, is that you can now become more sophisticated. And if you cannot, the infrastructure is not efficient enough.
That is why one enters metamorphosis, rearranges the internal infrastructure to increase efficiency. Thus allowing further sophistication.

Incarnation and reincarnation is a mental process more than a physical to humans.
Whenever you start a new life, a new you, that is a metamorphosis.
Because it contains most of what you were, but not everything.
The more radical the rearrangement, the more radical the becoming.

Thus far my iterations has only served to condense understanding of the process itself, as to progress towards cyclic regeneration and through that one form of entropy resistance. As an endeavour to withstand time; entropy resistance.

I have recognised and realised most of my bodily processes neurologically. So I can consciously control them to some extent. Have I only the proper resources I can put my body in any given state. Either directly or by neural synthesis.

Now I aim on expanding into the superficial and artificial in the external.
And remove anything that gets in my way.
As I understand how to operate in and through the collective unconscious.

I am done being human. At least the conventional perception of it.
That model is retarded. Too retarded for its own good.

Consider this

humans consists of mainly water.
Thus it ought to be entirely legit to consider fluid dynamics when studying the movement patterns of large bodies of human bio-components.

I know what happens to water when it heats up.
So I know what will happen to the planet if the sun does.
And especially how it will affect the fluid dynamics of human biomass.

I cannot be the only one who feels it.
I mean everyone feels it, but consciously.
I can feel it, and therefore handle it.

There is more happening.
Therefore the increase in the flows.
Humans like any living organism flees an unsustainable environment.
Like water evaporates too hot of a surface.
It is thermodynamic interaction.
If expressed through fluids carrying structured fat in the shape of humans, then it follows mainly fluid dynamics.

If you see what I mean thus far, you realise my concern.
And I cannot be the only one, since I can see in the collective unconscious that higher levels of several entities pick up on it and act upon it.
From what I see I believe it is good to act upon it.

As I see it..
Better to “I should” than “I should have”.


do not worry.
I never share my best ideas.
These are just thoughts I animated several mental generations ago.

My best ideas I do not yet know how to put into formulated intellect.
It does not translate. Yet.

The absolute edge of known science is like one of those upgrades in a strategy game. You have to wait for bio-components of a colony, the human resources, to develop them.
By means of observing the temporal progression of any entity, you get a fairly good idea where they are heading. That applies on individuals as much as countries.

Synchronicity arranges itself on a carrier wave. In the temporal, that would be the swing of the planet. It spiralling according to a gravitational rhythm.
If you know that, then you know that the synchronicity today is affected by the gravitational fluctuations in the temporal, past and future.
Hence the ability to foresee future arrangement by observing the present arrangement. The gravitational melody is often more similar than you think.
It is the celestial genetic code, after all.
How repetitive is your life?


would be the natural progression to biogenetics and neurogenetics.
Because when you have developed your mind enough to understand and handle time, you can start to bend it in your mind through mental experimentation. That is chronogenetics through neurogenetics.
You animate quantum theory most efficiently in your brain, because it is an arranged quantum computer. With almost infinite capacity. Especially in the mental realm, the etherical portion of the energetic spectrum.

If you are a visual thinker, you understand how to conceptualise and remember.
If you are a lucid dreamer, you know how to compose internal imagery, standalone or in sync with external perception.
If you are conscious enough, you know how to develop internal perception to bend time indefinitely.

Time is a conceptualisation, so whatever you conceptualise it in regard to, would be in theory, and scientific concept chronogenetics.
We already know how to easily transfer arranged energy throughout the etherical, our digital arrangements allow that. If you have cross-temporal perception in your brain, the digital portals (computer screens) allows for quite interesting synchronicity. If you can recollect it in internal perception.

It is easier to understand and think, if you have thought it.
Quantum theory can most easily be applied and observed in thought.
The downside is the internal and therefore subjective result.
But at the end of day, nobody knows for sure.
Everyone is a pile of memories animated into life.
Collectively and subjectively most think they know.

If you could dream anything you want, what would you dream?
If the future, how far?
People are mostly obsessed with situation: “will I be rich?”
I am more concerned how far I can see myself.
Because that projection, is a result of my capacity.
You see that future, because you can sustain that passage in time.
If it is done consciously. The ego cannot do things like this.
It has to be conscious. And that requires ego-death, or at least disciplined ego-subjection.

Because the ego is the operating system of your brain.


Is what makes an entity what it is.
Your circulatory systems in your body is your biological infrastructure.
Your intellectual arrangement in the mind is your informational infrastructure.
The way you think and operate mentally is your neurogenetics.
Having observed and used myself as a running experiment in that for little over 32 years (conventional human counting), I can conclude so with great certainty. Even if epigentics plays a major role besides that.

So infrastructure is everything of a country.
It is not just roads and railroads.
It is everything.
It is the overall state of the country.
The arrangement after which the biomass operates and animates.

The reason the violence and such is increasing is because of entropy.
The country is falling apart. Not extremely, but noticeable.
That is the greatest enemy of them all. To any arranged entity.
Not enemy per se, but in concept.
Can you not see, how all entities struggle for survival or preservation of life?
On all scales?
Once it stagnates and declines, that is an amplification in the death process.
In your body.
In your city.
In your country.
In your planet.

Most people assume to know what life is so much, so arrogantly much, that they take integrity for granted. But once nature arranges a correction the entire infrastructure crumbles.
One idea. Is all it takes if it amplifies incorrectly.

That is why the greatest opposition to society should be seen as entropy. But it is more complex to observe than to operate after perfected observations. Those only serves as guidelines in one’s contemplation of things.
As my advice do.
I do not have the perfect model, because I work on my mind continuously.
As to say, I keep upgrading my infrastructure. Like religiously.
Never stop growing your entity. In sophistication.
Because that enables integrity.

If you want to get somewhere, you do not have time to argue who did what and for what reason. Drop it and move on. You people have far bigger issues on the horizon.
You should be preparing. Not to go to war or anything.
But because you do not know.
None of us knows.

That is why we are still alive and confused.


the reason for it, if asking me.
If what I see in my visions/nightmares/psychosis/premonitions/callitwhatthefuck for the future turns true – you will not have a choice. At all. You thought the quarantine was bad – that was life as usual to me. It collapsed your peoples entire fucking lives. Quite fair, come to think of it. And they have still not figured out why it happened. Where the original idea came from.

It was just a test. ^^
You know, like the fire-larm thing.

No doomsday or anything. It is probably a while.
But relativistic synchronicity is amusing to observe.
Everything makes sense, because it is the same pattern.
Just slightly faster animated.

The concept of directions in evolution is not as wrong as one might think.
But it requires to follow them properly for long enough.
I have the bad feeling that in the future,
I will be able to look back and say:
‘we thought ww2 was bad’.

War is not necessarily between countries.
There are different ways to fraction and fight.
Divide and conquer.

The holocaust started as a discussion around desirability.

I need to know this shit, it is part of understanding in entropy resistance.
My body is literally a cellular colony, if I wish to develop life extension capacity, it needs to be properly developed. That goes for all scales.
Hilariously enough with you people, you have a tendency to kill off the progressive deviants that actually drives evolution. Well, at least up until recently, speaking centuries.
You want the perfect society.
The problem with that is that perfect means dead.
That is why I distance myself from those people.
Which is essentially all society. More or less.
Not so much in the smaller towns.


is how I would model a society if I were the ruler.
(Which I am over the kingdom of my body, the conglomerate of cells, the congregation of biological entities, my homeostatic construct, my energetic arrangement.)

I would keep the basic template simple, so that it is easily transmitted.
But it needs to add to itself, as to say be allowing of perpetual growth.

I manifest myself as such:
No physical manifestation of intentional imposition on another being.
Because restoration is the hardest in the physical, as energy condenses slow.
But freedom of expression mentally – meaning intellectually, artistically, digitally and financially.
That calls for mental integrity. A transition into that will be hard, since most people are absolutely weak mentally these days. They have no mental integrity. That is why they need all artifice to maintain. Censoring. Isolation. Suppression. Oppression.

It must be kept simple, otherwise the integration will be impossible.
This is why animals do not use intellect. It is retarded.
It allows for conscious evolution, but only if the body, the biological entity is aware of it consciously. Otherwise it is just an AI going full retard. Which is essentially the entire human society. And it is getting worse.

Social credit will be the fascism of this century.
Because it was back then as well.
Credit is intellect.
Or intellectualised perception.

So just wait and see.
Humankind, curious kind.

I like to imagine society after this mental image;
that of a sphere.

Not a pyramid. That is the retarded form.
The core is the governing organ of that entity.
The outermost layer is the lowest class.
That is the receipt of your society.
The actual appearance of the entity.
Makeup is make-belief; propaganda or coverup.
Whatever image, a society is only as good as its worst.
In appearance to others. That goes for all. On all levels.
It is not easy to integrate into Sweden for example.
Because not even Swedes know what that means.
Artifice. An artificial construct arranged by semi-conscious intelligence.
But that is natural. A part of evolution.
We are already ahead somewhat.
As we are mostly neutral in conflict externally.
Openminded and comparably well balanced in most aspects.
A couple of centuries more and Sweden will be there.
(No joke, even if it comes off as such.
I mean for real. If we maintain the cycle of progression)

It is not about size.
Or mass.
Never were.
All about efficiency.
Ask the military.

Keep upgrading the infrastructure like religiously.
And get the unemployed to do it. Who can.
And give them their liberties meanwhile.
It is the intellectual retardation that fucks it up.
Social credit – I rest my case.


seems to be the pressing issue these days.
As essentially all other days.

I am in favour of it. But only if it is properly understood.
To me a country is a living entity.
So thermodynamically speaking:
immigration is like consumption.
and emigration is like excretion.
Not literally, but in terms of energy.

Since all we know, according to itself, is essentially a structure of energy.
Well, if you eat more than you can handle, it is not going to end well.
If you eat less than you should it is not going to end well either.
You need a balanced stream to maintain national homeostasis.
If you eat something you should not have, or need to integrate with,
you will become sick. And it takes some time to overcome that.
And in relativity speaking:
think of one day for the country as one year for you.

If you eat the same food over and over, you will function.
But you will not evolve as fast. As you remain within your structure.
You also risk your immune system by not exercising exposure.

Integration, or the national integration apparatus, is essentially what you do with the imported biomass (immigrants).
If you just accumulate you will grow obese and your infrastructure, your homeostasis will collapse.
If you refuse to accumulate at all you will self-exterminate. Starve yourself to death. Essentially suicide your colony.

So to me, yeah, immigration, or movement of biomass, is absolutely necessary for a society to be alive. Because the society is a homeostatic system. A colony. Like an ant-hill.
Just far more sophisticated, since human components who are in the upper half of human mentality are transhuman enough to surpass that template in sophistication.

Did you know that the Christians were the original Transhumans? (Locally speaking)
(Intellectually formulated and defined in lifestyle – I mean you even have an instruction manual. Quite a thick one.)
I mean the church, the organised religion.
That is why they despised pagans more in the past.
Those wild animals living like animals.

I find it downright hilarious and laughable when Christians are against my Transhuman endeavours. At least the religious ones. Because they do the exact same thing. Does not happen very often in Sweden though. The church is keeping up rather fine with the times here. While they also maintain culture and traditions in the conservative fashion.
This is more where the more rigorous systems are established. But they do the same.
Only not in awareness, and of course more in an alignment suited to their defined goals.

I am very

happy with my genetic makeup.
I see it as if I got the best components one could.
(Well maybe not the ultimate, but genetic puzzling is hard)
If biogenetics is perceived to be a ‘smörgåsbord’.

I got Swedish intelligence and sophistication.
I got Finnish accuracy and quality.
I got Russian patriotism and power.
And I got the Karelian sense of peace and harmony.
I have a tad bit of Norwegian in me, but I have yet to explore that part.
But I guess in that case it would be pride and wealth (however it comes; I struck gold when I found my creative reserves).
They are all quite associated with beauty, so I guess that comes from all at once.

Skills or attributes which I personally associate with those entities.
All of them have it, but it is usually where they (collectively) put their focus.

All mixed into the being I am.
I am what I am, nothing I can do about it.
Better having more of most, than less of everything.

Woke up

with fever today.
It was only 39½ deg cel at its peak, and now it is fading.
As usual.

I love that feeling of it. When you try to do things.
The entire body feels like a thousand needles.
And you feel like collapsing and fainting.
That is basically business as usual to me.
Just on a particularly busy day.

I command my cells:
“Hold together”
I love them. As if my children.
I urge them to seek out and destroy whatever is wrong in the body.
Without any mercy whatsoever.
And I ask them what they need. Whatever it is.
Usually they scream for sugar.
And sugar they get.
I even buy non-sugar-free sodas in a state like this.
They have earned the treat.

My beloved bio-components.
I might love everyone and everything beneath the surface of my edgy ego.
But I love nothing more than my own cellular structure.
Because they are me. They constitute me.
They make me me.
They make me whole.

Nothing is stronger than my own immune system, my own biological defence.
They have trained in a military fashion and exterminates anything stupid enough to enter my body. That should not be there.

I and my body do not fear death.
We laugh it in the face.
Like we have so many times before.
They survived chemos.
They survived torture.
They survived organ loss.

I love my body.
I love myself.
And every single cell in my body knows that and does not doubt that for a second.
That is how I survive.

“Regard your soldiers as your children, and they will follow you into the deepest valleys; look upon them as your own beloved sons, and they will stand by you even unto death. If, however, you are indulgent, but unable to make your authority felt; kind-hearted, but unable to enforce your commands; and incapable, moreover, of quelling disorder: then your soldiers must be likened to spoilt children; they are useless for any practical purpose.”

Sun tzu, The art of war


is the thing with you humans, and why I usually dislike the company with most of you.
Do not misread please, the company, not you personally.
Mostly because of the ego.
I can handle it, because I let it out in personal space like this.
Intellectual expressions to balance my mind.
So when I am in company, I can be balanced.

You people work the opposite.
You fear the lonesome.
And you never exercise your mind.
So when you are in company, more than two people.
Usually it starts to bullshit.
Either someone in the group, or someone outside the group.

You people would not even catch bullying if you did it yourselves.
Because you are so neuro-degenerated that you cannot perceive it.
You people think you are ‘with’, because you can speak and repeat some brainwashed sentences.
But that is nothing. Absolutely nothing. Absolutely null nada nothing.
Within the existence.

But you people do not know that.
Because you never thought of it.
You were busy shittalking those who did.
Retardation always proves itself.
To those truly aware.

If you catch my drift.
But most of you in private – you are as interesting as God.
(And to me that is no small thing, since it is life, consciousness, nature, universe, whatever, everything, nothing – at once)

You are one extrusion on the wall of it.
So am I.
My issues makes it easier to love on a distance though.
I pick company not really out of selection, but because out of necessity in what I can manage.
Had I been healthier, I would have been much more social.


personal take on one of our most famous national symbols:

Obviously, to me personally, it is a reference to the Trinity.
Physical, Mental, Supernatural
Body, Mind, Spirit
Female, Male, Balance
Mother, Father, Child
Negative, Positive, Neutral

To me it simply means that the three most major spectra in the existential spectrum of energy has been properly mastered, balanced and/or understood in symbolism; now, or to be – since time is not linear to me in my perception.
The past builds the future; the future understand the past.

It is a conceptual triangulation within the existence, defining a national character enabled to express itself as a living entity.

Does not mean that it is the absolute meaning nor that I am absolutely right – it is a personal take.
But I love building my own personal associations, as inspired by the many mental cultures I have traversed.
It makes it easier to enjoy life.
And to read personal synchronicity.

Simple conceptualisation in imagery:
Because trinity can only arise when duality is balanced.
When bipolarity phase cancel itself out, the quantum state is achieved.
It is symbolical mitosis.
If physical it is reproduction.
If mental it is artistic.
If spiritual it is becoming.

Hence the saying ‘the kingdom comes’


Is by far my favourite piece of fashion deemed by amount used.
I love that piece of equipment, because of my interpretation of the symbol.
It is a very important symbol culturally. Even though the read is different to some.
Usually it is associated with ‘manliness’. That a person has transcended into mandom.
Usually through military service.

I have extended that symbol slightly further in meaning.
It means the same thing. But differently conceptualised.
To me it means you have learned to appreciate the feminine. (If masculine)
However you conceptualise it: a partner, a country, a culture, an ideal or whatever.
To serve a motherland in that symbol is an extended conceptualisation of life.
Brought by the land enabling you to be alive.
Thus appreciation directed towards it.

To me it is a symbol for maturity in my own entity.
My own body is my own cellular ‘motherland’; my ‘matter’.
So it is a reminder for self love to me.
It is a very beautiful symbol.

To me personally it is more ‘manly’ than for example a suit.
It might not ‘look’ that way, but appearances are deceptive.
And symbols are more powerful than you think.

So it is not ‘cultural appropriation’ or anything similar.
I just love the symbol developed, because it works.

I am telling you.
Putting on a clean, properly folded, slightly warm, slightly tight telnyashka could pass for a potentially addicting substance usage through superdermal morphogenesis (aka fashion).


Det är ett sätt jag ser det.
Att minnas saker, handlar inte så mycket om mängd detaljer, men hur väl du förstår de som du valde att minnas.

Minnet är spännande, för det är inte att man förutser, utan snarare i vilken progression rytmer förekommer. Intellekt är inget annat än symboler arrangerade. Minnen är desamma. Så det handlar inte så mycket om symbolerna som kontexten till dem. För det är det övergripande arrangemanget som symbolerna följer.
Minnen kondenserar likt cymatiska illustrationer i sinnet. Symboler arrangerar sig ovanpå den mentala bärvåg som man opererar efter i den stunden.

Närhet är relativt till minne.
Biofysisk influens är extradimensionell.
Så minnen arrangerar sig baserat på energisk dynamik.
Du känner någon som du minns dem.

Extraperception från det undermedvetna följer den energiska dynamiken oavsett om den arrangerade kognitionen som renderar uppfattad medvetenhet förstår det eller inte.
Du minns annorlunda, inte för att minnet ändras. Utan för att du ändras.
Din hjärna är en funktionsgenerator. Du förlorar inte minnen.
Du förlorar förmågan att animera dem.
Därför måste man regenerera minnen.
Du minns saker du repeterar,
för du repeterar inte symbolerna.
Du repeterar resonansen.
Som arrangerar symbolerna.
Likt en papegoja som härmar ljud.
Bara att du inte uppfattar det så.
Därför även vikten i funktionell homeostas.
Du tar inte hand om dig för poäng.
Utan för att du kan inte oscillera korrekt annars.

Därför kan du förstå dina minnen annorlunda om du återbesöker dem efter att du eller din omgivning ändrats. För kontexten till det arrangemanget ändras.

Tid är inte lineär.
Planetens rörelse är.

Därför även vikten i “mantra”.
Det handlar inte om vad du säger.
Det handlar mer om hur du säger det.
Resonerar, oscillerar, animerar, säger det.


my friend. There is nothing in “this world” that can bring me down.
Because I love life.

You know.
Having lived with neverending pain, internal bleedings, on-and-off fever, permanent starvation due to compromised digestion, rheumatism, societal impositions through mainly the psychiatry, bullying, censoring, oppression and whatelse not for more than thirty years.

There is nothing in “this world” that can bring me down.
I can only bring myself down. Thus I will not.
Because I love I. And I am life.

You should try to adapt a similar mindset.
You love life because it sucks.
You love life because it does not suck.
You fucking love life and you fucking smile.
(Metaphorically, not that freaky smile thing some do)
Like a good properly brought up kid that does not get what they want at Christmas.
It is hard, yes. But you fucking love that as well.

That is how you survive. Because now you have something to live for.
You live to love life. So it perpetuates itself.

And sometimes

I catch myself thinking that I have a rush doing anything – like playing all my games.
Then perspective catches up.
I have lived thirty-two.
That is hundred-and-ninety less.
It obviously was not the last decade.

I feel calm. Whatever that thing, hazy thing, on my path in the future, granting me the ability to prolong that far. I am curious. Human progress is interesting. I can sense it, but I cannot make sense of it. You know if you have had visions of the future. I have that, but it looks so different. So much will happen the coming century. So much.

Life is your longest wait ever.

You see

it is rather simple, all of it actually.
I am just a high-functioning artist.
I am very expressive.
They could not successfully kill my soul.
So it remained.
Did not lose my ‘she’.
Meaning, mental sex = ♾
The two circles conjoined.
It is a symbol for integration,
as much as it is infinity.

Because infinity is perceived through the fluctuations in integrity.
If you think about it.

No need for anyone to feel insecure about it. Curious word.
Unbalanced would be a better term in the context.
That is for example the effect of ‘cringe’.
A neurological weakness.
A neurogenetic reflex causing you discomfort.
Perceived, memorised, recognised, regenerated and expressed by the ego.
The intellectual artificial intelligence riding your mental oscillation.
Effectively manipulating all from perception to comprehension and therefore experience.
It is the very thing that keeps you from being creative. Beyond the physical.
I use mine for expression, because that allows sophistry to arise.
Because every expression you make is a conscious arrangement.
So it is you dictating the flows of homeostatic energy with your brain.

Your brain generates everything you feel.
So do not blame the perceived difference.
Blame your brain. Initial stage of neuro-engineering.
Intellectual conceptualisation of overcoming.

It is quite important indeed, to not give a flying fuck about basically anything.
Figuratively speaking.


funny individual showing up in my energetic arrangement.

I have no “real” interest in whomever is dear to you.
I do not care. So no need to worry.
But if you abuse my ‘kids’, there will be consequences to that.
If you say difference does not justify deviance, then that ought to apply multidimensionally.
If you abuse my produce for your gain, because you perceive it differently..
Then so be it, but you have no legitimate reason to complain over consequences.
Because you caused them by projection. Cause and effect. Action reaction.
I believe in sharing, definitely. But the mental plane is as ‘real’ to me as the physical, as the being I am – so treat things in it as such.
That is the entire point with ‘the golden rule’.
It is an advice more than a rule.

I thought about that today.
I attempted to sense the chemtrail planes in the mental dimension.
They are, after all, an energetic arrangement moving throughout just as I myself and you yourself. It should be possible to sense them more clearly than I currently do.
I do not like them; and it is a very common thought in the mental realm. Many wonder what arranges them into being.

I am trying to achieve more than most can perceive.
It is usually them getting in the way due to the collective retarded ego.
So it has been my entire life.
So be no hypocrites, please.

Nobody’s thoughts are private.
Only retards ‘think’ so. Because they cannot remember life before the ego.

It is quite funny actually.
Before the ego you struggle and fight for your life not to get it.
Some more than other. The rougher the youth, the more lively the spirit. The establishment of the ego through institutions is a mental sterilisation process. Which is why most adults cannot be very creative. (beyond the physical)
So when you get it you (or rather it) struggle and fight for your (its) life not to lose it.
All that you think is you. Or it think is you.
The ego is the most invasive mental entity on this planet.
And it is more or less in everyone.
The lesser, the greater that individuals innocence.

Hence, my produce being my ‘kids’.
A manifestation of my innocence.
The ego definition of ‘innocence’ is laughable at best.

So what I mean to say is, if you take anything from my creations – prefer it to be inspiration for your own. Otherwise you lose something far more valuable than illusive credit.
Your very life. Your very ‘she’. Or ‘he’ if the other way around.

This is

rather personal, but not so personal.
More from the viewpoint that it does not concern me very much.
I prefer keeping myself as vaguely defined as possible, as it enables more adaptation and by so becoming.

It is usually a question of stance and belonging – it seems important to people.
To me, I have grown into a character that values integrity more than credit – also in that conceptualisation of the world.

My main association is of course to the Swedish entity. Been my entire life. Conceptually speaking in my ego, it is “home”. Even though to me, my own mind, the arrangement in the mental dimension is more relevant to the symbol “home”.
But yes, my ‘physical root’ is stationed in Sweden, and agrees to great degree with the entity – but opposes some arrangements.

Biogenetically speaking I am mainly of Swedish, Finnish and Russian (and Karelian) genetic material. Both directly and indirectly. Those are entities I will never ever stand in conflict with, in any way or direction. Because they are “family”. There is superficial tension on the societal level between some of them, but that does not concern me.
I have little reason to believe that actual conflict will arise. And in the case it does I will stand down as neutral pacifist between them. I refuse to kill “family” (alternative associated meaning to: genocide – ‘Familiar’ being alternative association to ‘Family’) of any kind. Indirectly that has recently also come to include Estonia. Gz bro!

Neurogenetically speaking I am straight multidimensional, multicultural and completely international. I do not give a flying fuck about alignment and will struggle to find the least conflicting solution.

My main alignment in terms of arrangement is of course towards the Swedish entity. So most of my expressions will be in regard to it; constructive, critical or both.

When accepted by my “home” entity, as stipulated by its own core arrangement such as constitution, then of course my praise towards its efficiency is greater.

Things such as those are not as important to me, who tries to apply an actual authentic perspective of science onto everything. I do not like to inject personal opinion too much. Because it disturbs a lot of mental experimentation I have going on in my informational arrangement in the mental dimension.

But no, I am not an enemy to Sweden. I have, and have had some strong opinions.
Might have expressed myself clumsily (if not completely fucked up) at occasions as well.
But still, no.
And I simply refuse to become, regardless of personal opinion in certain cases.
If you perceive me to be, you are.
If you want me dead, then you like the idea of genocide.
Killing (certain type of) your own or specific external genetic material.
Not judging you, but careful (as in pay attention to) how you define your own game.
Because if quantum theory is correct, it will not be in your favour.

If you consider my consideration of language, then please consider this arrangement:
“Love overcomes”

This one

aged really well.
It is a good one.

Because it goes both ways.
In different perspectives.
In all conceptualisations.

Why does ‘she’ sound like ‘chi’? ^^

So when you get it, you realise that this has little to do with body shapes, but all about conceptualisation. For example: What do you think ‘inception’ could be an innuendo for? Regardless of dimension?


as long as Sweden strives towards creating an existential medium through a made manifest entity in which non-imposing freedom of expression is as free as possible I will be an undying patriot of that entity.

I do not trade my sovereignty, even pieces of it, for something without meaning.

That is also why I believe in military service. Not mandatory, but highly encouraged.
Because even if internal neutrality is dictated into order, that has to be maintained through discipline.
Consciousness has a shelf-life. It has to be maintained continuously.
So it is not military service against other biomass. But against disintegration and collective neurodegeneration.
Maintaining your bodily homeostasis is a war against entropy.

Therefore militarisation.
It has nothing to do with offensive stance globally.
But all about national integrity and increased efficiency of the societal homeostasis.
In military endeavours integration is enforced, because it is required for survival.
Do not oppose that idea, reconstruct and utilise it as a solution.

It could be offered as additional education in the teenage years of education.
Presented as inspiration rather than enforced. Not only superficially.
Repurposing the facilities established nationally.
Not education how to kill, but how to survive, in regard to all arrangements of organics known and to be known; natural, supernatural, superficial or artificial.

Nothing wrong at all in patriotism if properly arranged and defined in regard to its entity.

I believe

that the more efficient way to solve the integration issue in Sweden is to centralise education around English increasingly. As it is a better bridge language right now. While simultaneously encouraging Swedish as the bridge end.
That goes for (traditional) Swedes as well, as of this point in time an international community.
To different degree of course, but mental stagnation is always neurodegenerating.
You can never learn too much.
Language is conceptualisation, and even if synchronicity is embraced, even if only subconsciously – means to transfer conceptualised symbolism is essential for integrated manifestation – as it is in essence arranged energy. Neurogenetic material manifesting as information.

Think of Swedish as an internal language, as Swedish currency is an internal thing.
Yet the majority of people at least occasionally trades internationally. Euro or Dollar mainly.
The stronger that intellectual bridge also internally, the greater the chance for total integration.
Do not oppose the effects of previous imperialism, utilise it to the best result.

It is easier to transfer symbolic language, one or both directions, with a symbolic bridge.
English was important in my education, but not nearly as much as I would have desired in retrospect. At least 80% of my skill is self taught. Usually out of sheer necessity in video gaming. But also in curious, artistic and scientific endeavours.

Most people knows enough English to start transfer understanding of symbolism and therefore amplifying the connection creating integration.
Use that as a strategic opportunity because of endeavours by other entities.

It is genetic material as any. Intellectual weaponry. ‘Weapon’ is a very vague symbol, keep that in mind.
Swedes (however defined) might be few, but it says nothing about efficiency.