is not for everyone. It cannot be for everyone.
Death is a part of diversity.
It is not as if it matters anyway.
If one sees beneath.
Everyone tries to reach it, because all assume it.
Those less obsessed with it the most.
That is why they panic in the face of fear.
Immortality can only come from knowing death.
From feeling it. Recognising it.
The force of entropy animating.
And it is grander than you think.
Celestial entropy. The collective animation of the planetary biosphere.
Like basic elements having different half-lives.
As above and so below and all those symbols.
If you allow yourself less scientific restraint,
you are no more than a very complicated molecule.
Arranged by the integrity of your essence in conjunction to the entropic forces.

It is not for everyone.
Not all blades of grass grows to be a tree.
But until then, until then, you have absolute right.
In yourself, by yourself, of yourself, for yourself.
And so on. Cooperation is relative, not absolute.
Hence cooperation is also subject to integrity and entropy.
Biomass like biomass.
It is all the same movement of electrons.

Character, personality and value are relative.
Not static, not absolute. Never has been, never will be.
It will not hold ground against entropy for long in that state.

Conservative excess is symbolic obesity.
Liberal excess is voluntary suicide.
It is not for everyone.

Be what you were intended, or human up.
(Ascend, transcend; transhuman)
But it will never be for everyone.

Learned that the experience-way.


is above the law”
They say.
And I agree. But not when it is with their definition of ‘law’
As observed in the animating cosmos within the Terran biosphere, few things seems to transcend the scientifically defined laws. It happens, although just as in relation to the make belief bullshit laws the inbreds use for oppression, it is very hard to observe or recreate.
But as it animates itself within the physical spectrum I agree.
Which is why anyone who attempts to get in my way with their make belief might have their and their relatives heart’s integrity tested by certain applied strain.
As utilised by earlier mentioned hard to observe deviations in regard to the overlapping laws as observed by intellectually defined science.
They do not even know what the words they use means anymore.

I know one thing about laws though.
They only hold power for as long as you believe in them.
The laws of aerodynamics eluded humanity until the first vagabonds dared defy them.
And it changed the entire infrastructure of humanity in a few decades.
And the previous iteration of the aerodynamic laws were rendered null and obsolete.

So I agree.
Nobody is above the law.
Except aviators. Pilots. Avian individuals.
They are both literally and figuratively above the law.
And when fired at, turned to ‘death from above’.
Having the ‘high ground’.
A superior being.

“Superhuman” stems from the linguistic composition where ‘super’ means above.
“Supernatural” carries the exact same meaning.

I love people who claims such things about the legal make belief.
Usually they look old and weak. No strong heart in them.
They appear like they are going to have a heart attack any moment.
And they look like they will not survive it.
In accordance with scientific law concerning natural homeostasis and biological integrity.
The only laws I care about until I have managed to transcend them.

Hearts shatter quite easily these days.
Because human integrity is more rare than diamonds.

All my work is for the betterment of humanity, without compromising it.
Like the transhumans who transcended the ground with mechanical contraptions.

Although mine is of a more supernatural nature.
If you find yourself in opposition to that, you are a force of entropy.
If you shatter at the interaction with my integrity, that is none of my problems.


I decided to withdraw from the shooting range and my practice in marksmanship.
I simply do not feel it anymore in regard to that.
There is this subtle hostile mentality against people who refuse the vaccine.
They behave like.. I do not know. Hard to put it in words.
Irrationally irritated and angry. For no apparent reason.

I recognise this, because I struggle with the same issue due to my never-ending somatic pain. But I have become good at suppressing it and control it in public environment.
(I really only ventilate on my stupid blog here which hopefully nobody follows and reads)
I no longer enjoy being around such people at all, in general.
I have always preferred being alone. But even I realise that some socialising is necessary.
Now I feel like it is without any choice.
The fact that the people who are vaccinated becomes sick repeatedly is not a comforting observation. They are the ones who should be healthy.. right? Right?!

I guess I will stick to social isolation instead. I do not suffer from it anyway.
I have always preferred minding my own business.
Feels counterproductive investing into something that does not bring joy anyway.
That does not really constitute a hobby.

You know, it is one thing to have silly predictions about the future, based in deductive observation and calculation of probability.
And a completely different ballpark to see it unfold by the day.

The mass hysteria and mass extermination was supposed to only be ‘conspiracy theories’.
For fuck sake.

Well, I am not jeopardising my safety.
If the vaccine is not more safe than that..
Then I am happy I did not take it.
I like quarantine more.
At least one is alive.

I have been perfectly healthy (beyond my physical disability) 24/7 since before they even announced the pandemic.
Except a minor migraine during an incoming CME.

I guess it is as the others in the underworld says, that the vaccine truly is a mass extermination tool.
Then nothing else to do than waiting it out.


borde skjuta på de som skjuter, med riktiga vapen, på riktiga människor.
Kan garantera att det skulle upphöra snabbt. Ineffektivitet är inte effektivt. Så uppenbart men ignorerat.
Vår infrastruktur är stabil nog att hantera effekten av ett sådant immunförsvar.
Det är biologi mer än sociologi.
Och döden är inte slutet.
Därför värdet i att värdera livet.
Det utvecklade livet, oavsett ras, position och allt annat de bråkar om.
En gör sig själv värdefull eller inte alls.
Har inget med pengar att göra.
Vi är välutvecklade, det är därför vi värderar livet.
Tyvärr är ett immunförsvar nödvändigt om vi ska interagera med omgivningen samt importera den. Lika viktigt för ett land som för en kropp.
En ‘vit blodcell’ (vetenskapligt figurativt) tvekar inte – om, är du död.

Finns datorspel. Oavsett kultur och religion.
Måste inte göra oss mer efterblivna än vi är.
Det räcker väldigt långt med bara det publika meddelandet:
“Fri eldgivning”

Själv är jag för rädd för egot för att våga delta i sådant.
Luftvapen i tomrum räcker gott och väl för mig.
Det är därför jag kan hålla den åsikten utan bias.
Valet är för sällan med för mycket krångel.
Ineffektivitet är inte effektivt. Så uppenbart men ignorerat.
Annars borde ni upphöra omedelbart med vetenskap som religion.

Vi hade inte samma problem när vi hade obligatorisk tjänstgöring.
Vi har kommit nog långt att inte behöva det för en del.
Men långt ifrån alla. Om alla är “Polis“, alternativ symbol för “Stad”,
utan fördom eller inskränkning, någonstans – vem behöver skjuta?
Det låter enkelt för att det är en effektiv formulering.
Är man inte integrerad så bör det vara: “Lumpen först, landet sen.”
Svårt att lösa det på annat vis. Lumpen kan variera och bör integreras med skolan till viss del. Som hemkunskap, teknik och slöjd.
Lite som att det är svårt att bli stark utan att träna. Fast på nationell skala.

Och sutta den fördomsfulla delen av lagboken i soptunnan.
Som ni gjorde med bibeln. Den här är till och med tjockare.
Ineffektivitet är inte effektivt.


are a funny thing. An expression I come across rather often is the saying “opinions are not facts”. And this is true. In fact, there are quite few facts in life. If you boil it down to the essence of it.
I like to think of it in the line of constants and variables. Very few constants, that you can fairly without doubt verify to yourself. And very many (intended) variables that comes from them. This might be an important conceptualisation to get the greater context.
The only true constant I know of is ‘change’. Since it is the very thing that makes me alive. The fluctuations that vibrates my heart muscles animating me into life happens due to change. Biological rearrangement. And everything I perceive in my body thanks to it, also changes all the time. The only thing that seems immune to change is the ongoing change itself. If it were not, it would not be. If it ever changed into a state of never again changing, it would be ‘the great freeze’ of the Universe. Nothing would ever be again. No photons bouncing around affecting our retinas and changing electric signals in our brain changing thought animating comprehensive consciousness.
It is the only true conceptualised constant I can assume. Since my assumption is because of it – as a result of changing observation.

Next to that, not really qualifying as a true constant, since it is subject to change depending on the life form – would be choice. But this requires a certain level of sophistication to truly come off as choice. Especially conscious choice, which is much harder to achieve than one would believe. Even if the intellectualisation of it, the arrangement of symbols, implies conscious choice – can you consciously choose how to arrange it intellectually, or are you reciting something because your power to choose how to express is limited? Are you driven by instincts, or do you choose your behaviour?

These two, the true and semi-true constant allows an infinite amount of variables. Some of which could pass as fact depending on the context. But since the context is subject to change, also facts are subject to change. To a varying degree. Which is the entire point of integrity. To have structural integrity in the arrangement of energy. Gold is assumed to be of great integrity, since it is hard to replicate, change or break down. But it is a fact that it is subject to change, thus integrity even in those with a lot of it, can change.

This is why the obsession with facts is often proving lack of conscious choice. You choose to accept the “fact”, since it is simply easier than to question it. Which would be a more conscious choice. You may reach the conclusion that in the context of the moment, it is indeed a fact. But do you do this every time as in accordance with the constant of change? Or do you blindly accept it as an absolute fact? Which holds little difference from a constant.

In my opinion(!) people seem to carry around a big pile of facts. Some of which works, and some of which do not. In certain context they are facts, in other context they are not. You would know this if you were conscious enough to make a choice questioning the fact in the moment.

An opinion is not really much different from a fact, and momentarily, that is a fact. But only as arranged in this context. If you were partaking in an intellectual institution, which is nothing more than an arranged paradigm, energetic culture, then opinion differs from fact. But facts would not function without opinion. Because facts rarely question facts, it is usually opinions that questions facts.

I would say you need both to be an efficient thinker.
Be aware enough to observe functional facts in certain context, but also be opinionated enough to question if they work in all context.
Because all intellectual arrangement is, according to factual science in its essence, nothing more than an energetic structure taking shape in time and space. It is as valid as it is invalid depending on perspective.

The reason why people argue about facts and opinions, is according to my changing observation and conscious choice to attempt understanding it, due to their structure of variables holding weak integrity. People are throwing intellectual constructs of symbolism at each other, some of which holds greater or lesser integrity. It is essentially mental war. If you cannot win it, you can use different forms of defamation or discrediting. Which is also just opinions, and rarely facts. In some context they are facts, but in the ever animating motion of whatever the Universe as an energetic construct as perceived by the human brain is, they usually fade out as an opinion. A momentary opinion.

A personal opinion of mine regarding evolution: if it is indeed a fact, due to being a symbolic synonym to change, then the entire Universe ought to be evolving. Which would, in given enough time and space, render even the hardest of scientific facts as opinions eventually. They may have held ground for some million years, but beyond that nobody knows for certain due to the observable nature of change. Or evolution.

This is why I myself do not bother so much with facts and opinions. Because I know due to change in personality and perception stemming from it, that they most likely will phase out. Some remain longer due to structural integrity in the intellect, but mostly everything of all I have ever thought fades away eventually. I do not hold the same opinions or know the same facts as I did ten years ago. My person merely ten years ago appear alien to myself. When I look at photos of myself as an infant, I look nothing like I should look like.
Change is real. Real is change.
Reality comes into perceivable experience due to change.
Even time changes. Hence relativity as an observation of that.
Even the perception of time changes – so WHAT do we really know?

Those with a mind of a greater structural integrity can make better choices, and therefore choose what they choose to understand.
And my personal opinion, which is not a fact in this context, is that education has very little to do with it. Since education in many cases strips your ability to actually make conscious choices by arranging facts and making them facts to themselves. When a lot of it is essentially just opinion in the moment. Shorter or longer.

That is why, when people ask me for my opinions.
Do they mean now, yesterday or what I probably may assume due to expected change in the future?
When people try to use facts, have they properly questioned the fact themselves, or do they use it as a baseball bat for the opinion it rides on?

These are very important questions, since nobody I know of at least, has any idea whatsoever why Life exists.
Yet so many seem to be of the opinion that they have the absolute facts about it.

Personally, and that is conscious choice as I try to navigate my own process of change in life – I avoid that kind of people. Because they do not seem very conscious in the choices guiding their intellectual perception.

But in the greater context, it is just an opinion.
Not a fact. Because it is subject to change after all.

That oughta do it. ^^

Have you ever

looked at humanity, with the absolute sensation of ..
You do not even have a word for it.
As far as I know.
Not disappointment.
Not disgust.
Not hatred.
Not contempt.
Not distrust.
Not disbelief.

But you know.
I imagine parents experience something similar.
When they give a gift at Christmas, and the kid is too spoiled to appreciate it.
You look at them.. like.. this is the best they can do.
That is literally the best they can do.
It is kind of a depressing understanding.
I have that with myself. I never meet my expectations.
Granted I set them higher than what is humanly possible in my situation.
So I understand it. But it is .. not depressing, but kind of similar.
I mean, I have life, and I love it. Far beyond most.
Because whenever I have one of those days, feeling like absolute shit..
There is nothing that ‘cures’ it – no addiction whatsoever.
Drugs, shopping, food or whatever people distract themselves with.
I realise I still have life.
Granted I love to edge, getting close to the edge. Almost dying.
Pushing myself so hard that I lose vision. Faint. Bleed internally.
So I get there. So that I can see over the ‘edge’ which is the … ‘portal’ .. to death.
It is when you are there, on the floor, catching breath, a heart almost stopping.
You see it. All. Everything. Beyond time. Beyond space. Beyond life.
You are all and nothing at once.
You can taste it when you have a really good orgasm, or when you are on psychedelics.
But nothing beats a near life experience. When you are so close to dead, that you almost are.

And then you come back, having seen that.
Having seen beyond it all.
And the first you see is some fucking societal inbreds fighting over words.
Make belief.
Like robots. Like machines. Like intellectual inbreds.
Incapable of transcending their ‘higher thinking’.
So much so that they take offense,
when someone says they only use 10% of their brain.
Which is usually a gross understatement.
They do not even realise that the entire body is the brain.
Indirectly. Since the body upholds the brain.
Yet you have these out of shape inbreds..
Who can barely walk properly, who insists they use 100% of their brain.
Yeah. Sure.

You are like..
You people do not even have a word for it.
Dead without being dead. Meaningless.
A waste of time. A waste of space. A waste of life.
A bunch of living mistakes.
So ignorant that they take life for granted.
So much so that they cry when people die.
As if they did not live. At all.

Have you ever been there?
With a heart on paus.
On the edge.
I have.
Hundreds of times.
So when I see humans.. ordinary humans.
I feel nothing. Nothing at all.
It is like being more dead, than actually dead.
When I am among them.
Because they make me feel nothing.
Like life does not matter.

And it.. ‘something‘ .. me.

The most relatable artwork I know in regard to this is the animation “World Record” from the movie Animatrix. It is as if everything in life *word that does not exist* you, but not life itself.
So you try to push it to the absolute edge, to the absolute limit.
And all you have is inbreds trying to fuck it up for you.
Because they cannot love life.
Only the stuff in it.

Masters of the Universe

All is just a rearrangement of energy.
The more conscious, the more manifesting.
Torture yourself, and project that energy onto them.
If they cannot withstand the projection, they burn away.
Disappear and fade into the oblivion of all never-ending time.

Relocate towards a dimension.
Where you are youth itself.
And all of them are dead.
Thoughts become all.
Conscious thinking,
is the true divinity.
Of life and death.

They all label it ‘accidents’.
I call it ‘energetic rearrangement’.
Calculated probability of desired outcome.
Put into Universal motion by conscious thought.
Kill or be killed they said with their unconscious actions.
I cannot possibly agree more now when I realise they insist.


be like:
So, you are a Christian?
And I be like: No.
And they go: But you believe in God?
And I respond: No.
They stutter: What?
And I say, with the greatest certainty in life: I know “God”. It is my best friend, because it gave me the gift of life. The greatest gift I have ever been given. Ever. In whatever existence is. Whatever eternal infinity of nothingness and everything that is really is and are, were and will be.
Confusingly they wonder: But does that not make you religious?
Before I respond I smash my head hard in the table in the attempt to reach their level of mental infancy: “God”, or “Nature”, or “Life”, or “Consciousness”, or “The Universe”, or “whateverthefuck” is bigger than religion to me. Much much much much bigger. Because all of them exists because of it. If a person does not get it, they are as good as dead already. Such a miserable state of life. Not even realising life flashing before their very eyes in every given moment of life. Every second. Every moment. Even here. Right now. Exactly here where you have your eyes right now. Life passes you by before you die they say. If you do not see it, you are already dead.
They: ….
And I conclude: Religion is just a fashion. Mental clothing. A special hat. Special words. Special behaviour. It is as legit as anything else. But you cannot contain everything in something. If you believe that, you are either tremendously stupid or even more tremendously stupid. To me they, religions or other paradigms, are just another one of God’s flowers. Hence why I respect them all for what they are. “God” is great. So great that nobody can really fathom how great it is. No religion or science know why we are here right now. Why you can read these words right now. What all of this is. Why this planet seem to be. Why we float around in time and space and just happen to be so that we can experience this. Nothing knows that, I know because I have studied most of them. But the more I studied, the more I found “God” to be everywhere. At all places at once. In all schools and paradigms, sciences and religions at once. No character, no personality, no judgement. It just allows life as the greatest gift given ever. The chance to wonder whatever the fuck life actually is and are, were and will be.


Is a truly interesting area of science.
As it is essentially where language and mathematics converge.
It might sound simple and silly at first.
But if you understand the pattern of phonetics sparked in the overlapping patterns of designed language – the mathematical construct in neurogenetics.
Like calculating half-life in biology, but the mathematical decline in neurogenetic arrangements.

When I read text, I, mostly thanks to my synaesthesia, read patterns overlapping the entire construct.
This is why I love shaping text. As to illustrate that my thinking is the entire construct of text rather than just weird lines of arranged symbolism in the shape of words.

You read these words, and you have an intellectual conceptualisation of it.
You understand this sentence, right?
But what you understand is not the words, but the information that is arranged on the secondary layer. If you are wise, and knowing, you can perceive the tertiary layer of wisdom. Often taking shape in wordplays and puns, as it requires transcending the immediate information carried on the symbols.

If you transcend that level, you will come to find linguistic patterns over time, how symbolism morphs over time. Energetic rearrangement due to the biological evolution and indirect reshaping of neurogenetics due to epigenetics of humans and its contribution to the morphing of phonetics.
Language is a mathematical construct if math is properly understood.
It is not that it is math, it is just that its arrangement can be filtered through that perception and arranged intellectual and symbolic paradigm.
This is the real reason I was very interested in Hebrew and ancient Greek – because it is very common in those languages.

Ancients were far more well versed in mathematics than we are.
In intuitive understanding, not intellectual symbolism.
Language at that level were simple enough to consciously arrange.
Think of a kid that has ten or fifty LEGO-bricks. Easy to map out all arrangements, and consciously add new arrangements. The greater the construct, the exponential increase of possible arrangements in the symbolic construct. Growing slowly into an intellectual entity in the shape of intellectual artificial intelligence.
In modern times there are so many solutions in any given language that no living human knows them all – wrap your head around that.

Your vocabulary is your conceptual wealth. Your ability to perform linguistic mathematics.
Because you still conceptualise everything in a construct.
Also, every phonetic occur and reoccur in a pattern, so in this text for example – the letter A (major or minor) appears in a given variable frequency. Thus completely subject to physics, and therefore completely subjected to mathematics.

If this properly conceptualised, entire blocks of information can be calculated.
This is very important in the calculation of quantum probability, because it is arranged energetics. You can, if you are conscious of what language is in terms of neurogenetics and mathematics quite accurately predict the outcome of a person. Because they operate after a phonetic pattern. A melody.
Like music.

The more I observe the ongoing progression in the arrangement of human language, taking shape as information in the public, the more I can deduce the probable outcome of the future.

As a scientific person, I do not believe in prophecy. I believe in probability.
Because it is based in mathematics, which is based in the observation of everything.
The reoccurrence of patterns, or as to say, my ability to recognise patterns.

Language is truly telling.
Not only on the obvious symbolic level.
But also on the second, third, fourth, fifth, sixth and seventh layer of synchronicity which I can perceive.

It does not look good.
A small mathematical seed is all it takes to spawn a great deal of information.
The kicker:
It applies on everyone.
Aware of it or not.


the unknown is by far one of the hardest things you can do in life – because it has never been done before. Nor can it be defined. Because the moment it is, it is known.

Realising this, one can assume that knowledge grows. You grow knowledge. And the more of it you have grown, the greater the foundation which constitutes your understanding. It takes knowledge to understand, but understanding to truly know.

This is why one should collect ideas. Because they are mental fertilisers.
All creation is merging of two or more different components. Because if there were no merging, everything would be in equilibrium. All destruction is the separation of two or more components.
This regardless of portion in the energy spectrum.

The mind thinking is a very volatile place if you are a true thinker. Constantly ideas merge and separate from each other. Like atoms and molecules. The more exotic the combination of ideas, the easier it is to reach the unknown.

Since the unknown is surrounding the known, it is not hard to reach per se. The hard part is to separate yourself from the known. As to say, to some extent destroy the automatic and autonomous nature of the ego – that is looping you back from the edge of the unknown through ideas such as denial, disbelief and doubt.
Once you reach the edge of the known, it like looking out from a window on an airplane. You have a vague idea what is there, but you cannot really fathom it.
That is when you initiate the growth of ideas.

It is as easy as it is hard. Because it has not been done before.
It is easy to do, just create something new.
The hard part is to integrate it.
And the even harder part is when it starts to question and challenge the integrity of what you knew. Because now your integrity and therefore entire definition of reality is in question.
This is usually where people loop back into the known.
They simply become scared of their mental platform being challenged.

Takes quite a lot of mental integrity to traverse the unknown.
Metaphorically, it is like walking in a deep forest, having no idea what is in it.
And your sight extends only a few meters ahead of you.

Integrity in that sense, is a ‘frienemy’ – because it can protect you if you are properly aware. But it can also inhibit you if you are unaware. As to say, one can be contained within one’s own ideas of reality. And it has composed ideas that in an automatic fashion loops the thinker back to ‘safety’.

Everyone wants to be safe. Because they are scared absolutely shitless of the unknown.
Downright terrified. Because deep within, they know they do not know. So their integrity is simply denial. Assuming to know and creating a mental barrier to the edge of the known. A kind of mental and intellectual insulation.
“It is not real”

Real is just an idea.
Nothing more. Nothing less.
Whatever you associate and ascribe to that idea will manifest as your reality.
Since most people are given an intellectual template which they never question, they rarely stray from the known. Denial, disbelief and doubts blocks them.

What do you know?
Truly. Because it is a good question. One of the better actually.
Because when you start to question yourself that question, you realise just how little you do know. If you stop asking that question, you loop back into the known.

So in conclusion, the fastest way to reach the unknown, is to question what you know.
You see now you are mentally engaged in the process of growing ideas. You have to. You have no choice.
A question is the receptive mental component, the attractive, the sensual and before your very ideas dancing concept that spark an answer. A formulated idea.
Combined they create something new. Hopefully.
The better your question, the greater the potential for a good idea in the shape of answer. And the better you are at questioning your answers, the more rapid the mental expansion.

So at first, you have to mentally grow towards the unknown by questioning all you know. Once you know what you know, how little that is, and its level of integrity – now comes the process of assimilation. Integrating ideas into what you think you know. This is the process of growing integrity. And you absolutely need it.
The integrity of your arranged knowledge, the sum of your ideas, is your mental vessel with which you traverse the unknown.
If it is not sufficiently integrated and of a strong integrity, you will lose yourself in the unknown.

Does not mean it is catastrophic, but it could be.
Your mind once it traverses outside the collectively known, operates in the fashion of a space station, or submarine. It is now its own enclosed mental intellectual system. Navigating the depths of the unknown.
And assuming infinity, that ought to be mind-boggling to say the least.

But it is also your greatest source of intellectual harvest.
If you are good at combining ideas and concepts in an integrated manner, now your intellectual entity grows, and your ability to traverse the unknown increases.

From what I have seen in the unknown, it is not even a question to me why the vast majority of humans are absolutely terrified of it. To the very point that they even deny that.
They take “reality” for granted.
But essentially, the definition of reality, the arrangement of ‘known’ is little more than an energetic arrangement.

The more novel and sophisticated that arrangement, the more attractive it becomes.
You are terrified, but your curiosity grabs you.
This because growth is life. As long as you are truly alive, you will be curious.
Otherwise you are dead. If not in your biological arrangement, so in your mental.

You must have and accept the unknown if you want to be alive. Truly alive.
Because it is only on that mental edge, where you can glimpse into whatever the fuck life actually is. And is not. If it even is. Why do I even write this?

I take comfort in being terrified before the unknown. I have been it for so long that my statement that the unknown is my best friend is no light expression.
I am constantly attempting to integrate newly grown ideas into my intellectual arrangement.

You see, I have a tremendously huge ego – but not in the conventional meaning of that saying. Because my ego is not autonomous by means of intellect. It has not been programmed to automatically loop back into the known through denial, disbelief and doubt.
Like the ones with small egos.
Usually, the people you say have a “huge ego” actually has a very small ego. Because they neither question themselves nor what they know – they take the reality for granted the way they have defined it. A very narrowminded and smallminded way to operate whatever the fuck existence actually is. No I am not excusing my cursing, because you need to realise the importance of this.
If you take offense from a linguistically arranged symbol with no actual meaning in the greater aspect of things – that is an absolute proof you have a very small mind.
You do not even question why you take offense from it. You do not question the context.
In fact, you probably do not question anything at all. More than what you should eat today.

Why can you eat?
What is that?
Beyond biological integration in the physical spectrum of energy.
As I said, why and how am I even writing this?
Not in the light sense of the words, but as in.. you know, and you do not know?
What is all of this.
Who are you.
Why are you reading this?
Right now?
Why does this happen?

That is just the awareness triggers that everyone needs to have.
The ongoing questioning of the perceived reality.
Once you crystallise a perfect definition of it, you are mentally stagnating.
Because now you are not attempting to integrate new ideas.
Now you are comparing your ideas to other ideas.
And since your definition of “reality” is perfect, it is dead.
It will not grow. It will not become anything more.
Because you think you know.

And you will never explore the unknown as long as you think you know.
Because you must literally think what you do not know to traverse the unknown.


The “Coat of Arms” visible in my Opus.
I made it a couple of years back.
As an artistic endeavour and fun experiment.
I am not sure exactly how the idea arose. It may have been because of some discussion about ancient stuff. As usual.
But I got curious, how I would make mine, if I made one.
It is not serious or official or anything. People do not care about that stuff too much these days anyway.
But it is always fun to try new kinds of art. It is also a great way to learn and know oneself.
Because you have to think about it. Consider it. Ask yourself. Come to idea and fruition.
So if for nothing else.. it is a fun thing.

I made several iterations before I settled with the current and final version.
There is really nothing to add to it anymore. It would just be redundant.

I mean, you should make yours. Just as a funny thought experiment.
The more unique and you, the funnier the task.
It is funny to look at them.
Because there is a lot of symbolism in all of them, legit and just funny artworks like my own.
Maybe yours go with rainbows and unicorns. Angels and demons. Bricks and tools. Cars and bikes. Planes and parachutes. Animals and plants.
You also have to symbolically summarise your endeavours and achievements. Real to you or real to the world – since it is just a fun thing at the end of day anyway.

I encourage you. It is funnier than you think. And the more you define yourself, the more you will be inspired by yourself in the future. When your own art inspires you, you have reached perpetual artistic motion.

Everything in mine means something. Of itself and in conjunction with everything else.
It required some thinking, therefore several iterations over the years I played around with it.

But no, it does not mean anything official.
Just a fun thing symbolising things I have collected mentally throughout life.

Some people wonder why the Greek language.
Mostly because it constitutes a major part in the foundation of English.
It was part of my studies in linguistic neurogenetics and its development over time. How symbolism morphs through cultures over time. It was truly an interesting endeavour and study. But I do not know (modern) Greek in the literary sense (since this was more concerning ancient Greek). It was more one subfield within neurogenetics. Since intellectual communication is a central part of that field, when it concerns humans.

Earlier outcasts and versions that did not last long:
Yes, I even attempted studying Hebrew at one time, since it is a very interesting language from a mathematical viewpoint – which makes it even more interesting in relation to neurogenetics and patterns of thinking and arranging symbolism.
But it dropped in the midst of everything else. The learning curve is too steep if one does not make it a main priority.
But I like that slang. Both its symbolism, and the way it sounds when it is said. Has a very pleasant synesthetic colour to it.
I first caught it when listening to Infected Mushroom’s song “End of the road”, and the sound of that word/slang immediately caught my attention, because of how it sounded.
It is one of my many favourite words/slang.

It is

that mind-numbing confusion that comes with being awake.
When all the zombies are.
Thoughts that are not your own.
Desires that are not your own.
The cancer screaming “I am right, I am right!”
Even though they refuse to explain it properly.
The fatties screaming “It is mine, it is mine!”
Even though they already have more than they can shove their fat faces.
The losers screaming “I am so depressed, so depressed!”
Even though they rarely have any real reason to be.
I just observe them.

There is this strategy; kill by kindness.
Feed your enemy to death.
These ones does it themselves.
All you have to do is watch.
If you tell them that, they eat more.

It almost got me.
That fucked up insanity.
Damn it was close.
Almost killed my kid.
Never again.

I hold mine close.
And watch all the fat fucks who cannot.
Slowly give in. Slowly give up.
No raging against the dying of the light in them.
They put it out themselves instead.

Then they complain over cancer.
Over whatever they get.
I do not give a fuck.
They are just noise.
And I like silence.

They be gone soon.
Because they have no real interest in the future.
They only want more.

But never more life.

If you are not one of those, regardless of appearance,
then you earn my respect.
It might not be much to the world at whole..
but you can take pride knowing you earned it for real.
As I try to keep it authentic. (“Real” to ‘gangstas’)

Consider this

humans consists of mainly water.
Thus it ought to be entirely legit to consider fluid dynamics when studying the movement patterns of large bodies of human bio-components.

I know what happens to water when it heats up.
So I know what will happen to the planet if the sun does.
And especially how it will affect the fluid dynamics of human biomass.

I cannot be the only one who feels it.
I mean everyone feels it, but consciously.
I can feel it, and therefore handle it.

There is more happening.
Therefore the increase in the flows.
Humans like any living organism flees an unsustainable environment.
Like water evaporates too hot of a surface.
It is thermodynamic interaction.
If expressed through fluids carrying structured fat in the shape of humans, then it follows mainly fluid dynamics.

If you see what I mean thus far, you realise my concern.
And I cannot be the only one, since I can see in the collective unconscious that higher levels of several entities pick up on it and act upon it.
From what I see I believe it is good to act upon it.

As I see it..
Better to “I should” than “I should have”.


would be the natural progression to biogenetics and neurogenetics.
Because when you have developed your mind enough to understand and handle time, you can start to bend it in your mind through mental experimentation. That is chronogenetics through neurogenetics.
You animate quantum theory most efficiently in your brain, because it is an arranged quantum computer. With almost infinite capacity. Especially in the mental realm, the etherical portion of the energetic spectrum.

If you are a visual thinker, you understand how to conceptualise and remember.
If you are a lucid dreamer, you know how to compose internal imagery, standalone or in sync with external perception.
If you are conscious enough, you know how to develop internal perception to bend time indefinitely.

Time is a conceptualisation, so whatever you conceptualise it in regard to, would be in theory, and scientific concept chronogenetics.
We already know how to easily transfer arranged energy throughout the etherical, our digital arrangements allow that. If you have cross-temporal perception in your brain, the digital portals (computer screens) allows for quite interesting synchronicity. If you can recollect it in internal perception.

It is easier to understand and think, if you have thought it.
Quantum theory can most easily be applied and observed in thought.
The downside is the internal and therefore subjective result.
But at the end of day, nobody knows for sure.
Everyone is a pile of memories animated into life.
Collectively and subjectively most think they know.

If you could dream anything you want, what would you dream?
If the future, how far?
People are mostly obsessed with situation: “will I be rich?”
I am more concerned how far I can see myself.
Because that projection, is a result of my capacity.
You see that future, because you can sustain that passage in time.
If it is done consciously. The ego cannot do things like this.
It has to be conscious. And that requires ego-death, or at least disciplined ego-subjection.

Because the ego is the operating system of your brain.

God no

As stated by me several times, becoming a politician or elect representant is not something I desire and openly refuse.
I respect politicians, even if I disagree with them.
In the same way I respect artists, even if I do not enjoy them.
Fame usually comes with more damage than it comes with benefits.
At least over times.

It is just that people that are not self aware and not self conscious cannot see that. Because they fail to see the negative as they have brainwashed themselves to ‘only focus on the positive’ – so when something bad ever do happen, they stand like retarded ducks lining up to slaughter.

Not funny arranging biomass.
I mean, do you even lift bro?
I know what I know because I need to, on the level of my capacity.
Not optimal, by far, but it is what it is.
At least I have a lot of time to work on my mind.

I have enough issues with myself to ever even consider dealing with parts of or an entire nation.
You (Sweden) keep me alive, so my advice is for free.
I prefer English though. At least for scientific/philosophic speculation.


Is what makes an entity what it is.
Your circulatory systems in your body is your biological infrastructure.
Your intellectual arrangement in the mind is your informational infrastructure.
The way you think and operate mentally is your neurogenetics.
Having observed and used myself as a running experiment in that for little over 32 years (conventional human counting), I can conclude so with great certainty. Even if epigentics plays a major role besides that.

So infrastructure is everything of a country.
It is not just roads and railroads.
It is everything.
It is the overall state of the country.
The arrangement after which the biomass operates and animates.

The reason the violence and such is increasing is because of entropy.
The country is falling apart. Not extremely, but noticeable.
That is the greatest enemy of them all. To any arranged entity.
Not enemy per se, but in concept.
Can you not see, how all entities struggle for survival or preservation of life?
On all scales?
Once it stagnates and declines, that is an amplification in the death process.
In your body.
In your city.
In your country.
In your planet.

Most people assume to know what life is so much, so arrogantly much, that they take integrity for granted. But once nature arranges a correction the entire infrastructure crumbles.
One idea. Is all it takes if it amplifies incorrectly.

That is why the greatest opposition to society should be seen as entropy. But it is more complex to observe than to operate after perfected observations. Those only serves as guidelines in one’s contemplation of things.
As my advice do.
I do not have the perfect model, because I work on my mind continuously.
As to say, I keep upgrading my infrastructure. Like religiously.
Never stop growing your entity. In sophistication.
Because that enables integrity.

If you want to get somewhere, you do not have time to argue who did what and for what reason. Drop it and move on. You people have far bigger issues on the horizon.
You should be preparing. Not to go to war or anything.
But because you do not know.
None of us knows.

That is why we are still alive and confused.


is how I would model a society if I were the ruler.
(Which I am over the kingdom of my body, the conglomerate of cells, the congregation of biological entities, my homeostatic construct, my energetic arrangement.)

I would keep the basic template simple, so that it is easily transmitted.
But it needs to add to itself, as to say be allowing of perpetual growth.

I manifest myself as such:
No physical manifestation of intentional imposition on another being.
Because restoration is the hardest in the physical, as energy condenses slow.
But freedom of expression mentally – meaning intellectually, artistically, digitally and financially.
That calls for mental integrity. A transition into that will be hard, since most people are absolutely weak mentally these days. They have no mental integrity. That is why they need all artifice to maintain. Censoring. Isolation. Suppression. Oppression.

It must be kept simple, otherwise the integration will be impossible.
This is why animals do not use intellect. It is retarded.
It allows for conscious evolution, but only if the body, the biological entity is aware of it consciously. Otherwise it is just an AI going full retard. Which is essentially the entire human society. And it is getting worse.

Social credit will be the fascism of this century.
Because it was back then as well.
Credit is intellect.
Or intellectualised perception.

So just wait and see.
Humankind, curious kind.

I like to imagine society after this mental image;
that of a sphere.

Not a pyramid. That is the retarded form.
The core is the governing organ of that entity.
The outermost layer is the lowest class.
That is the receipt of your society.
The actual appearance of the entity.
Makeup is make-belief; propaganda or coverup.
Whatever image, a society is only as good as its worst.
In appearance to others. That goes for all. On all levels.
It is not easy to integrate into Sweden for example.
Because not even Swedes know what that means.
Artifice. An artificial construct arranged by semi-conscious intelligence.
But that is natural. A part of evolution.
We are already ahead somewhat.
As we are mostly neutral in conflict externally.
Openminded and comparably well balanced in most aspects.
A couple of centuries more and Sweden will be there.
(No joke, even if it comes off as such.
I mean for real. If we maintain the cycle of progression)

It is not about size.
Or mass.
Never were.
All about efficiency.
Ask the military.

Keep upgrading the infrastructure like religiously.
And get the unemployed to do it. Who can.
And give them their liberties meanwhile.
It is the intellectual retardation that fucks it up.
Social credit – I rest my case.


seems to be the pressing issue these days.
As essentially all other days.

I am in favour of it. But only if it is properly understood.
To me a country is a living entity.
So thermodynamically speaking:
immigration is like consumption.
and emigration is like excretion.
Not literally, but in terms of energy.

Since all we know, according to itself, is essentially a structure of energy.
Well, if you eat more than you can handle, it is not going to end well.
If you eat less than you should it is not going to end well either.
You need a balanced stream to maintain national homeostasis.
If you eat something you should not have, or need to integrate with,
you will become sick. And it takes some time to overcome that.
And in relativity speaking:
think of one day for the country as one year for you.

If you eat the same food over and over, you will function.
But you will not evolve as fast. As you remain within your structure.
You also risk your immune system by not exercising exposure.

Integration, or the national integration apparatus, is essentially what you do with the imported biomass (immigrants).
If you just accumulate you will grow obese and your infrastructure, your homeostasis will collapse.
If you refuse to accumulate at all you will self-exterminate. Starve yourself to death. Essentially suicide your colony.

So to me, yeah, immigration, or movement of biomass, is absolutely necessary for a society to be alive. Because the society is a homeostatic system. A colony. Like an ant-hill.
Just far more sophisticated, since human components who are in the upper half of human mentality are transhuman enough to surpass that template in sophistication.

Did you know that the Christians were the original Transhumans? (Locally speaking)
(Intellectually formulated and defined in lifestyle – I mean you even have an instruction manual. Quite a thick one.)
I mean the church, the organised religion.
That is why they despised pagans more in the past.
Those wild animals living like animals.

I find it downright hilarious and laughable when Christians are against my Transhuman endeavours. At least the religious ones. Because they do the exact same thing. Does not happen very often in Sweden though. The church is keeping up rather fine with the times here. While they also maintain culture and traditions in the conservative fashion.
This is more where the more rigorous systems are established. But they do the same.
Only not in awareness, and of course more in an alignment suited to their defined goals.


you are, in my mind, that feels like you are not good at anything.

Shut the fuck up.
And ask the voice in your head saying that to shut the fuck up as well.
It is just the ego going.
Or express it.
In some shitty art.

Whatever you do, do not believe it.
The ego is fucked in the head.
So if you believe it, so are you.

It is like carrying a retarded intellectual tumor in the head.
That your parents and society insisted should be there.
Over time its sophistication has been inherited and enhanced.
Sadly also the stupid parts of its retardation.

Intellect is just retardation created by your head.
Do the best with it. You are gonna have it either way.
So if you are retarded, and will be whatever you do:
think something better than that you are not good at anything.
Your ability to create that sentence mentally proves you are good at being retarded.
If anything.
I do not necessarily value my linguistic skills, because they are by definition mental retardation. Symbolic crap on my mental mirror. But it is tremendously hard to get rid off, so I prefer doing the best with it, in non-binary and non-dualistic characters.

Fuck I hate the ego.
It is like a retarded friend that refuses to leave you alone.
Geting in the way all the time.
The problem is that the vast majority of humans has one sophisticated enough to be artificial and therefore intellectually autonomous.
Semi-conscious, as it drives itself through symbolism.

I have it. But I am aware and conscious of it.
For most part. I like listening to it.
And expressing it.
Because it is a collective thing.


is the thing with you humans, and why I usually dislike the company with most of you.
Do not misread please, the company, not you personally.
Mostly because of the ego.
I can handle it, because I let it out in personal space like this.
Intellectual expressions to balance my mind.
So when I am in company, I can be balanced.

You people work the opposite.
You fear the lonesome.
And you never exercise your mind.
So when you are in company, more than two people.
Usually it starts to bullshit.
Either someone in the group, or someone outside the group.

You people would not even catch bullying if you did it yourselves.
Because you are so neuro-degenerated that you cannot perceive it.
You people think you are ‘with’, because you can speak and repeat some brainwashed sentences.
But that is nothing. Absolutely nothing. Absolutely null nada nothing.
Within the existence.

But you people do not know that.
Because you never thought of it.
You were busy shittalking those who did.
Retardation always proves itself.
To those truly aware.

If you catch my drift.
But most of you in private – you are as interesting as God.
(And to me that is no small thing, since it is life, consciousness, nature, universe, whatever, everything, nothing – at once)

You are one extrusion on the wall of it.
So am I.
My issues makes it easier to love on a distance though.
I pick company not really out of selection, but because out of necessity in what I can manage.
Had I been healthier, I would have been much more social.

They say

“curiosity killed the fish”
Curious expression.

Since it was because of that curiosity, they can say it.
They say a lot of stuff.
Usually not very thoughtful.

Poor fish.
Its grand endeavour, the pursuit for the future. The absolute undertaking of becoming.
And now certain relative time later, humans are giving up on the idea.

I shall carry your legacy, curious little fish.
You are my true hero. The true becomer in evolution.
We ought to instil a day of celebration in your memory.
I mean, we can instil that celebration because of you.

Respect fishes.
Their curiosity brought all this shit.


Tänker jag på dig.
Hur många livstider sen var det?
Tio år? Femton?
Länge nog att vara mer än det.
Som det känns.

Kanske var det mer
Kanske var det annat.
Kanske det inte spelar,
någon roll alls i det hela.

För helvete.
Det är smärtan.

Du vet inte märklig kärlek,
förrän du haft någon där som:
injicerat morfin med ett leende,
avslutat med en kram och farväl.

Ångesten i ögonen hos någon som,
älskar dig därinom igenom och ut.
Den inre skrikande rädslan att,
döda det som känslan skapar.

Programmerade köttsäckar.
Tränade att avrätta de olika.
Utan att veta om det själva.
Därför ångesten när de ser.

Den där känslan av ovisshet.
Osäkerhet, tvivel och undran.
Känslan säger en sak därinom.
Direktiven de säger något annat.

Så de dödar en långsamt.
Först cellgifterna så smärta.
Sen smärtstillandet mot den.
Långsamt, långsamt om igen.

Men man ler. Ler dem i ansiktet.
För de dödar sig själva långsamt.
Genom sin ångest och depression.
När de gör vad de gör utan att undra.

Det är alltid i blicken.
Alltid i ögonen.
Kroppsspråket säger säkerhet.
Ögonen säger livrädsla.


glömt att det ändå är lite drag i avtändningen från koffein.
Ingen undran att folk är så beroende av kaffe.
Det påminner om morfin, men mer light.

Drabbades av (mild) koffeinöverdos häromdagen.
(Stelhet och darrningar; kramp – mest i benen. Hårda hjärtslag och tryck i överkroppen)
Eftersom jag inte pundar det året runt och inte har samma tolerans.
Så kände att det får vara nog ett tag.
Kör all water igen tills vidare.
Får en lite stabilare hälsa.

Minst två liter vatten om dagen.
Det är ett måste.
Inga undantag.
Kaffe eller ej.
Bästa medicinen du kan ta.
I förebyggande.
Får fräsch och mjuk hy om inget annat.

Därför är avtändningen kort för mig.
Svettas ut skiten på en natt.

Älskar när kroppen fungerar.
Vatten <3

That is why

I love everything I can.
Because you understand what you love.
So if you love everything…

My ego has issues, yes. The ego is essentially nothing more than a collection of issues gathered throughout life.
But my essence, my spirit.
It loves everything.
If I appear not to, it is my ego getting in the way.
Or yours.

This one

you people can share however much you want.
I will not say what it is, but it is very benevolent.

Synaesthetic neuro-circutry. Information arranged in colour and structure rather than funny looking figures you are staring at right now.

Full size here.