(Totally accurate picture of me)
Although I believe myself as the artist to be of little importance to the art itself, here follows a brief summary of myself.
I was born in the later part of the 80's (so I never got to experience its glory myself) in Sweden. I am of almost half Swedish heritage, and more than a third Finnish heritage. I also have a large part Karelian heritage and a slight trace of Russian heritage. Somewhere in there is also a tiny bit of Native American. I am very proud of all my major heritages, being Swedish, Finnish, Karelian and Russian. The Native American part I am very honored to carry, although it is very small. This although I really only speak Swedish fluently. I know like three words in Finnish, but know a fair amount of Russian. Not really to communicate, but enough to compose or translate in that language if I want to. Aside from that I know a little French, German, Dutch, Greek and some Latin. As I am a writer I rarely ever speak, so my skills are more in written text than in speech. I also attempted studying some Hebrew at one point, but that is the hardest of all scripts I have studied, so I put it on hold for the future.
I suffer from a particularly aggressive autoimmune disease, and I am also due to failed treatment physically disabled. If I were to describe my situation with three words it would be "pain, pain and more pain" as I suffer from almost daily internal bleedings. Whoever that philosopher was who said that pain is the best tool for progression, had at least half a point. My situation is the reason why I have spent so much time on my studies and art. While the art may appear simple it is anything but. When it comes to art, people should not really judge by the looks of it, because the inspiration behind the composition is what makes it what it is. Some people have asked me, if my art is just a bunch of symbols mashed together in order to give a 'mysterious look'. And depending on who you are the answer differs. To me it is not as every piece of imagery in my opus is carefully crafted. Every piece in every image is put there for a very specific reason. As to create meaning of itself and in relation to other symbols in the image. But the translation is of little importance, what is of importance is what you take from it. How you choose to interpreter it. Depending on your gathered intellect you will have different levels of experience from it. So, it could be a bunch of symbols mashed together in order to give a 'mysterious look'. But someone highly intellectual could look at the images for hours finding new meaning in them, whereas others brush it off as just trash. But so it is with any art, not just mine. It is very non-linear in its style, at least in the opus, because that is the style I enjoy the most. Basically my entire opus is the byproduct of my studies. It was originally not intended to be shared. The reason why I have made it black and white is because that is how I feel a lot of the time when people look at my art and judge me for what they perceive in my art. They judge me instead of their own interpretation of the art. And that is the black and white thinking which is of the most people. So it is essentially a play on concept hidden in plain sight.
As a person I am despite what many believe not really an introvert, but rather an ambivert. I tend to be introverted most of the time by choice, but I can switch to being extrovert without major trouble. It simply depends on the situation and company. When I am among people and take on an introverted character, that is in most of the cases because the company is boring, or more accurately put, not as interesting as my own mind. But in the right company, or under the right circumstances, I can be fairly extroverted. I spend a lot of time alone, but not really by choice. It is because of my health situation. This has led many people, mostly my former friends and acquaintances to believe I am anti-social. But it is really all down to me not having any real choice in the matter. As I have spent so much time sitting still and in loneliness I have forced myself to master my skill of attention and observation. Therefore I am a very quick learner. Attention is really like a muscle, the stronger your attention, the longer the span you can activate it. And the more activation, the more recollection through learning. As one learns more, one understands the principles of observation better, and from that can realize patterns manifesting. This has led me to having quite a high IQ. I have done some official supervised tests with great result. I am positive that one can improve ones intelligence, because I was not even remotely as intelligent as I am today when I was younger. Maybe I had the foundation for it, but it still does not change the fact that I have improved it. A lot. When you spend a lot of time alone and in stillness, you master the mind in ways most others do not. Simply because they are too distracted by whatever drives them the most. Most do not even listen to what they themselves say.
When I do not do art I enjoy air rifle marksmanship (and sometimes rimfire). Although it is really hard in these times due to my health situation. I used to be fairly good, and in my youth I performed on high level; former national champion with the help of my sister (who is even better as she was multiple national champion in different disciplines) and another person in .22lr team composition for that age section; 8th place in individual performance. My brother performed on high level as well in his youth, 8th place in individual national ranking as well for his class at the time). I also enjoy actual painting, and usually bestow my paintings upon carefully selected 'victims' (since they would never pay for them anyway, speaking quality-wise). I also really like the concept of subversion, and use it as an artform through intellectual acting. As to say, I formulate alters through which I express myself in the collective reality. Like Roleplaying, but far more calculated. I have played many intellectual roles now, and it has helped me a lot to understand this reality. It is like seeing the world from other peoples perspective, because you cannot do that until you truly pretend to be like them. So in a sense it is like actual acting, but it is done without the physical form. (Although I often extend my intellectual acting to physical expression as well, such as clothing and behavior) Further from that I also enjoy gaming, or to be more accurate, playing games. Because I really only play by myself. To me playing games is like looking at art. Since my intellect is starting to become of fair size, I can extract quite a lot from the games I play. As at least half of the gaming experience takes place in the mind, the greater the mind, the greater the experience. The only thing I dislike is me being so disrupted by the pain when I play, which makes it very hard to focus on the 'gaming' aspect. Therefore I rarely play multiplayer games, because I am bad, and stopped doing it when I was told I weighed down the team. Trying to learn and play League of Legends was a nightmare I will never attempt again. But I do look forward to Classic World of Warcraft. Because you can play it and get away with some retardation.
I am also a huge fan of music. I love art in general, but music takes the crown. I tried making music a period in my life
but I never really got it back then. I am no singer and I cannot really play any instruments
(more than the symbol-keyboard, like a true max-level keyboard shaman with full legendary who has downed everything to endgame).
But on the other hand I have never really invested any greater amount of time into it
(yet, maybe one day - I have a talent for succeding to some degree in most of the things which I try nowadays, as I do everything with my whole heart).
But nevertheless, I still love music beyond what my words could tell. And there is not much music which I do not love.
The more soul one puts into it, the more I love it. You can feel when someone actually mean what they do, sing or play.
Or like Eminem eloquently rapped it:
"Music is like magic
there's a certain feeling
you get when you're real
And you spit and people
are feeling your shit."
I am not that kind of person that tries to compare bands or genres, or lock myself into a certain type of music or stereotype. I think that inhibts ones experience of life. I have found great music in every genre thus far. Sure, the mood changes, so some days some music does not fit, and other days it is perfect. Only in a monotone life would a certain genre be absolutely perfect all the time. So the music which I have linked and recommend in my work is of all kinds and genres, and I really like all music. I am also not that kind of person to whine about artists or bands changing, change is only natural. To be so obssessed with old works that you despise the new works is like loving the leafs of a tree from the past season more than the leafs of the current season. Rap, rock, metal, blues, house, trance, synth, industrial and whatever they call it, everything has something great, both in the mainstream and deep in the indie. Because it is not about the style itself, it is about the expression. If you are true when you do it, shit will come out brilliant.
Despite what many people would like to believe about me, based on expressions I have made, usually in character, I hold no political opinion (I do not vote), nor do I affiliate myself with any particular religion. I tend to lean a lot towards Christianity, but only in terms of sane fundamental values. Basically all religions says the same thing if you scale off the bullshit and mindcontrol. I do however try to respect any political and religious affiliation. Belief and opinion does not hurt anyone, until it does. The less one is adherent to it, the less one will take damage from it. Thus I do try to stay out of it, as I do have enough pain as it is already. I do not judge, there are enough judges out there already. And Evil loves judges, as they do its work for it. Evil cannot throw stones by itself, it needs people for that. Gullible and naive people who are willing to sacrifice their integrity for the superficial.
Another thing which I often got questions about. No, I am really not part of anything. No culture, no societies, no clubs,
no cults or anything. I am part of some organizations, but they are not hip enough to become conspiracy videos on Youtube.
I am not really a part of the Swedish system due to my disability and health situation, but I do my absolute best
to partake in it and contribute what I can. This artwork of mine is in a sense a dedication to all the tax-payers in Sweden (even if some of the art does not seem like that).
They have supported me financially, indirectly because of the system, for which I am very thankful.
Tax-payers may not think so, but I am, since basically everything on this website exists thanks to the Swedish tax-payers:
without them my brilliance would not be as I would not have survived. That is the simple truth.
I love Sweden as a country, with its ancient culture and people, the system has some flaws, but nothing is perfect in this world.
I am also a fan of the Royal family. I hold no political opinion about it, nor do I personally believe in the systemic superiority.
But I think that since the old monarchies are quite rare, it
makes Sweden 'cool'. Not many countries can count themselves in that group anymore. And as an artist it is hard to deny the artistic aspect of it.
I am also a fan of the Swedish army. Not because I support violence or war, but because I believe in discipline and service.
Also because it can count itself as one of the most progressive armies.
In every aspect of that word. Further from that I am also a huge fan of Swedish practictioners of sport, as it is in a sense
non-violent warfare in this world. The competition for dominance without intentional casualties.
Due to my non-violent nature I simply do not oppose most people. I can be quite rude (in character) sometimes, but that is as far as I stretch without really good reason. I find any and all schools, fields and paradigms to be interesting, some more than others. I study whatever helps me distract from the pain the most. But I am very careful about selling out and becoming a part of something completely.
The sad part is that my body is failing. Early 2019 it looked really bad, I recovered some. But it is not getting better. In complete honesty I do not expect to live much longer. A couple of years more if I am lucky. My spirit is very strong and my mind and will as well. But my body is simply too broken because of all the shit it has been put through, both by myself when I was out of order and the corruption of the system. I made this website because I wanted it to be some sort of Monument of myself when I am gone. It will disappear eventually, but so will anything and everything.
I really do not want to be associated with my art directly. I am the creator of it, sure, and I am very proud of it. But I do not want to meddle between it and the experiencer, or affect the opinion of the experiencer too much because of who I am. This brief presentation is really only for some extra context.